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Tuesday, August 12, 2008 @ 10:09 PM
Busy-busy hair so frizzy...thoughts around me makes me crazy. Dang it i'm gonna have a practical test tmr, the day after and exams are so near. What if i fail? What if i can't make it through and graduate successfully? What there is for me after school? It's been swinging in my mind for weeks and only now that i realise that everything is so near. Even end of the world yeah haha fark. Oh lord, why am i living a life full of grown-up thoughts? Am i thinking much more mature now? Or am i thinking as if i'm mature? or maybe...just maybe i'm annoyed and stress of what happened and what's happening? Questions are packed in mind. Finding a way to release it all to get rid the pain of burden. I'm handling too much i guess. But i feel so calm. Like there's nothing to worry about. I am worried. Am i lost? Am i confused? I don't think so. I know how to control myself. I'm in control of my life. So what's bothering me?. Scary. Weird. I feel so different then before but i'm still still who i am. I still play and joke. I'm who i am when i was 5 or 10 years ago. And yarh, i still think that most people i know have changed alot. Some are not even being nice to me. What have i done to them to be treated like so? I don't understand. Sad of this bloody sickening changes all around, but still i'm feeling happy at the same time. I feel satisfied. I like what i have and what i don't now. No regrets of anything. I love myself. I love for who i am today. I am proud of myself. I am proud to be who i am. I love Dinie Amsyar. |
